Cocaine To Cope

Cocaine To Cope

As I lie awake for hours,
I think about all the lies.
I think about things that happened
that make me want to die.

As I start to loose my memory more
and my mind gets more messed up.
I feel the cocaine hit my brain
I hear the ringer, feel the rush.

I know that half its my fault
with the amount of drugs I do
but when that needles in my vein
the pain stops coming through.

At least the drug is sometime
away from the memories of my passed,
because it haunts me everyday
and will till the very last.

I wish my head wasn't filled with anguish
all the fucking time
Makes me need to take that shot
and makes me want to die.

Someday it will be all over
and then I can just sleep.
My mind will shut up talking,
Once I'm buried six feet deep.


Cocaine To Cope is a twenty four line poem composed of six quatrains, each follows an abcb rhyme scheme. The rhyme scheme and the words of the poem give the poem a depressed and painful tone. The speaker is trying to mask her feelings and memories of painful things that happened in her passed, by using drugs while she waits for the day that she can sleep forever.